Living in the past is not recommended. But at one time or another we have all experienced nostalgia. Tonight it hit me hard. It's hards to explain really but I'm sure you can relate. Sometimes nostalgia sets in and my heart yearns for simpler times. It's crazy to witness and acknowledge the quick passing of time yet never enough to stop and savor the moments. Every once in a while I find myself wishing I could go back in time. As a teenager you want nothing more than to grow up and make your own decisions. I wish I could go back and tell my teenage self to quit trying to grow up. I wish I could tell myself to enjoy my siblings, to relish the crazy times we spent together. Regardless of who you are, life is messy. And it pulls you in a million different directions. Tonight I'm really missing the comfort of my parent's home and the closeness of the relationship I had with my siblings. I'm missing the girl I was before I was touched by the bitterness and coldness of the world. I miss the innocence that protected my mind from jumping to the wrong conclusions. I miss the girl before the hurt.
But this too shall pass [2 Corinthians 4:17-18] My pains and sorrow are not in vain for I know my God has a greater bigger plan for my life. And yes I do miss the girl I was once but without all the trials I have faced, I would not be the woman I am today. I would not know compassion or empathy. I would not appreciate the time I spend with my family. I would not appreciate the small moments that have a lasting impact on my life. I would not have grown. I thank God for the circumstances I've been in because it has drawn me nearer to Him.
I think it's okay to miss what once was. But it's not okay to let it dominate your life. The past is gone. But we do have the present. Live everyday thanking God and loving the people in your life. And if you've broken relationships in the past, it's not too late to mend them. I know I'm going to try.
Make peace with the past, live in the present and look forward to the amazing future God has for you.
I still have some work to do regarding making peace with my past but I know that God will heal the wounds and make my heart new. Won't you let God heal yours, too?
xoxo,
Susy
